Friday, September 28, 2007

Today I learnt a lot.
How blind am I?
Physics and other stuff.
No wonder she never wants to come back.
A LOT OF STUFF.
I need strength to deal with what I've learnt. Where can I FIND IT?
Hope that she's happy now.
She should be happier than she would've been here.
Really miss my cousins. Mainly Nisha and Aravind. Nish is overseas now still studying her A levels. According to her, in Perth, you only have to study one year for As. But she didn't do well the first year so she went back to study another year. Is that the real reason?
Wishing she'll come back end of this year. And hoping that just me, my bro and Nish and aravind can go somewhere and spend the day doing nonsense. Miss both of them alot. The last time they came down was very long ago. Feels like an eternity ago.
Went to their new house like once or twice so farTheir place is nice. But the feel isn't right.
Miss my aunt I guess. Seven years since she's been gone. She could have lived longer.
My cousins almost don't feel like my cousins anymore. But we still have a blood relation.
My aunt was really sick at that time. She might not have lived very long. But it's not their right. She survived the heart attack she had.SHE COULD HAVE LIVED.
On another note though, I really think I'm going to fail physics. I did two past year papers but failed both of them. Trying to work hard so I don't fail it cos I cant confirm a pass in Maths.
aybe Mingching's help will help. Haven't confirmed yet but I think I'm meeting him on Monday to do Maths. Chem's ok. Chem is officially the easiest H2. But it's not very easy.
MUST GET PROMOTED!!!

Posted by dummyforsale at 12:25 AM

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Today was an ok day I guess. Mugging all the way. Maths can be a real pain in the ass you know. Especially Application of Integration and Differential Equations. But I finally figured out Differential Equations with help of Zirui and Benson. They're full of shit. Spent one whole maths lesson making super difficult integration problems up and solving them. And they could solve it!!! We were here thinking they were going to take like 10 years but nope, barely 10 minutes. Sam and I spent our time bitching about Dipsy. And doing maths of course. Just more of the bitching.
Just realised that someone I know is probably in a lot of pain. Hit me that everything I'm going through is nothing compared to the world of pain people are going through in their own lives. And yet I cry everytime I face a mundane, low-level problem. I think, am I that weak that I can't find an easy solution to any problem I face? When there are so many people out there going through unsolvable problems and imcomprehensible pain, I can't even bear problems from something as simple as replacing my times with other friends because a group member can't make it for PW? I'm ashamed of myself. Not because I cry. You should never be ashamed of crying. But I think underneath it all, it shows my weakness of not being able to cope with small problems. And it really scares me. Cuz I realise that there's nothing I can do to help that person and I have to watch by the sidelines while that person puts up a front everyday while inside that person's crumbling inside.

Posted by dummyforsale at 2:01 AM

Monday, September 24, 2007

AHHHH!!!!! How could this happen?!?!? How the hell can I be so careless?!?!?!

It all started after PE. After some fun at PE due to our wacky couple dance, Ahshiba, Sheryl and I went to change to our ugly elephant-skin school uniform. I put my phone and my wallet on my elephant-skin shirt and started changing. Pulled at my shirt. Wallet fell on the floor. Not bad enough. HANDPHONE FALLS INTO THE TOILET BOWL!!!!!

Thank god the toilet wasn't like, used. Quickly extricated and washed my phone. That's when it started to go haywire. First, visual goes (although blank white screen appears after some repeated banging of the phone on the auditorium tables during Econs lecture by Weilun and Sheryl). Suddenly vibrates. Great. Received message when my phone is giving me divine white light instead of my regular wallpaper. Borrow Sheryl's phone, answer to message and tell mom my phone's fried. Return Sheryl her phone. Continue banging phone and trying to switch it on throughout remaining lecture. Goes on during PW lecture. Only hit jackpot at end of the day when the images appear on my phone screen during Physics remedial. Whoops with joy. Then it runs out of battery due to the repeated on-ing and off-ing. Darn.

Almost opened my big fat mouth about my secrets again. Lucky Sher was still talking so i just shut up.Cant rmb wat the topic was about that made me almost say it.

At least it works.

Posted by dummyforsale at 8:07 AM

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Finally got time to blog!!! I am officially panicking, what with PW and promos and all the random stuff. Hope I do well and at least get promoted or I'm going to be real sad. Banking on passing Math, Chem and Phy.Econs........ dunno la. Try my best I guess. Wish I was clever like Mingching but sadly I am of lower intelligence. So sad. But I must work harder and not blog. No idea how people find time to blog. Scary.

PW is in a mess. Interviewed Mr Toh about our project and his best advice is to scrap the idea. Die la. But ST sas we have to " defend our grounds." And Ms-Intelligent-ST just told us that the words in diagrams are counted. NOW ONLY SHE TELL US. WE"VE BEEN SCAMMED FOR THE PAST SIX MONTHS!!! Die. We'll overshoot like shit. Die. Die. Die. Then Er's group also used a lot of diagrams and they already overshot by 1.5K words. But theirs is damn good la. All ME with one being a high ME. My group is probably all AE la. Die. And on top of that we overshot words. DIE.
Why is everything crashing down as I speak? Am I gonna fail promos. Probably.I'm just so happy all the time that I never stop to feel pain. I guess its crashin down on me now when I'm vulnerable with all the PW shit. At least my primary school past is not coming back to haunt me. then I'd just die and go to hell. Dont see the incentive of living sometime cuz when I die, Im probably just going to hell. Im afraid to reveal some of the secrets that will make my friends run. Only some ppl like Mingching know so its ok. But for someone who doesnt like keeping secrets, i sure have a lot. I almost told some ppl but caught myself. Ppl probably think im spastic the way i start talking and then stop and shake my head and catch myself mid-sentence. I guess its better that way. Or i'll just be a loner.

Posted by dummyforsale at 5:21 AM

Monday, September 03, 2007

Did since Mingching wanted it done.

:1. (the person who tagged you is) - Mingching
2. (your relationship with him/her is) – 5 years of friendship:)
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) – Extremely clever. Radical. Great secret keeper. Funny. Cuckoo.
4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) – Whole bunch of thingsJ I can’t choose one. Has to be meeting up with me in all his free time
5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) – Thi, if you do that one more time I’m going to poke you.
6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) – Scream and run in the opposite direction.
7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) – Not happening in this lifetime.
8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) – Cry. A lot.
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) – I probably pissed him off so bad he screamed at me and I’m refusing to admit I am wrong even though I know jolly well I am. Yes he’s that nice.
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) – Help him find his soulmate.
11. (your overall impression of him/her is) – He’s a wacky guy who some people just can’t stand. He takes a bit of getting used to but when you know him for 5 years…
12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) – Irritating person who laughs extra loud at all the wrong times which makes her look as if she’s attracting attention.
13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) – Cuckoo!
14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) – Sometimes I can’t stop being cuckoo.
15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) – Myself (since some crazy people would like to be me, for a reason that is past my reasoning)
16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) – I love you guys.
17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1. Sanjeven
2. Samantha
3. Shena
4. Shona
5. Sheryl
6. Shankar
7. Sweehao
8. Ahshiba
9. Weilun
10. Mingching
(who is no.6 having a relationship with?) – No idea:)
(Is no.9 a male or female?) Male.
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) – Nope. Two guys with very different characters. Swee won’t be able to tahan Mingching.
(What is no.2 studying?) – Geog and how to produce non-dustbin sound from her trombone.
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) – This morning between paper one and two of GP. Discussing aforementioned like-shit paper.
(What kind of music does no.8 like?) – Tamil songs and beautiful Girls by Shaun Kingston.
(Does no.1 has any siblings?) – A gorgeous sister.(Me, for those who couldn’t guess from my ego-inflating words.)
(Will you woo no.3?) – No. Girls and both straight and have an eye for cute guys (like th e ticket guy at AMK Hub)
(How about no.7?) – Don’t think so. If he can’t stand Mingching, he sure as hell can’t stand me.(Is no.4 single?) – Should be. She might be dating a tree:)
(What’s the surname of no.5?) – Chia.(see, I know my friends.)
(What’s the hobby of no.4?) – Sing and make random sound like “Ee” and “Ah”
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) – Yup although she gets pissed off with him once in a while.(Where is no.3 studying at?) – Aj.(Say something casual about no.1) – He’s really nice.
(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) – I AM NOT A LESBIAN.
(Where does no.9 live?) - Sembawang.(Funny, same as Mingching’s answer)
(What colour does no.4 like?) – Purple I think
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) – no. never met.
(Does no.7 like no.2?) – OMFG!! Guess who has at no.2 before I changed it? HAZEL!!!!!
(How did you get to know no.2?) – Class Clique!!
(Does no.1 have any pets?) - Kangeroo dog. As said by Mingching snice me and my bro have the same pet.
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) – Er.

Posted by dummyforsale at 5:54 AM

Promos is so damn close! I can almost smell it... ok actually I can't but WHO CARES?!?!? The schooldays-pretending-to-be-holidays have officially started. GP test was a killer today.I kept o falling asleep and stoning. Hope I don't get like-shit marks. Crap gotta go now though. Hope I have tijme to blog again real soon.

Posted by dummyforsale at 4:57 AM

Saturday, September 01, 2007

I need to blog more. So here is a post.

10 things that piss me off
1. People degrading themselves when it's so FUCKING obvious that they're better that what they are making to be.
2. People who go out of the way to show they hate others.
3. People who prefer revenge to forgiveness.
4. People who refuse to cooperate but complain.
5.People who stand around wasting time not doing anything.
6.People who think the only way to make everything better is by removing themselves from the equation.
7.Project work.
8. The fact that some teachers try so hard but noone appreciates them.
9. People not handing in Physics homework.
10. People going," you didn't give me the worksheet!" instead of "I forgot to take the worksheet from you."

As you can see, this week has been crappy. From scotchtape to Weilun being an arse to project work to project work (two incidents). Ms Ang wants our WR by Monday. She's trying so hard that I take everything I've said about her. I'm really trying but my group ca't seem to find a time to meet up and do it. So now I'm like doing the changes that Ms Ang wanted. A bit sad but , hey, I can make any change I want! It's a plus. I think.

Anyway.

Usual school days pretending to be holidays are coming up next week. Have to go to school on everyday except Friday. It's not that bad I guess. I get to see everyone in school. But I can't stay at home and provide my dog with the "undivided attention"(quote Mr Ng) that I promised her. She looks so forlorn with her please-play-with-me-and-my-ball-that-does-not-look-like-a-ball-due-to-all-the-times-I-chewed-it look. It's so sad.

Screw JC.