Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Today was an ok day I guess. Mugging all the way. Maths can be a real pain in the ass you know. Especially Application of Integration and Differential Equations. But I finally figured out Differential Equations with help of Zirui and Benson. They're full of shit. Spent one whole maths lesson making super difficult integration problems up and solving them. And they could solve it!!! We were here thinking they were going to take like 10 years but nope, barely 10 minutes. Sam and I spent our time bitching about Dipsy. And doing maths of course. Just more of the bitching.
Just realised that someone I know is probably in a lot of pain. Hit me that everything I'm going through is nothing compared to the world of pain people are going through in their own lives. And yet I cry everytime I face a mundane, low-level problem. I think, am I that weak that I can't find an easy solution to any problem I face? When there are so many people out there going through unsolvable problems and imcomprehensible pain, I can't even bear problems from something as simple as replacing my times with other friends because a group member can't make it for PW? I'm ashamed of myself. Not because I cry. You should never be ashamed of crying. But I think underneath it all, it shows my weakness of not being able to cope with small problems. And it really scares me. Cuz I realise that there's nothing I can do to help that person and I have to watch by the sidelines while that person puts up a front everyday while inside that person's crumbling inside.

Posted by dummyforsale at 2:01 AM