Monday, June 02, 2008

Learning more about other people has really made me feel that life dealt me all the easy stuff. Of course not everyone tells me everything, but, i dont expect it to be that way. But i still think that I've gotten life easy. All I have to do is wake up early and come to school. To me, other people have so many things to worry about that I dont seem to have. And that's a good thing for me. I guess I'm not that stressed about everything. Cuz other than studies I dont really have things to worry about. I guess it makes me feel a little insecure cuz, i keep on thinking that sooner or later, I'm just going to get whacked in the face with all life's problems. I still remember a certain time not very long ago when Mingching and me and Quanhui we going out regularly. I always got it easy until one time when i was ABOUT to hit rough waters ( to kindle your memory for mingching: my brother). But i still managed to put my life in order, avoiding all the hurdles, potholes and speed bumps. Luckily. I cant imagine if i hadnt. Still thinking to those times when we had so much to worry about. It was so freaky but i guess it IS part of our destiny and part of who we are.( although we havent changed much in that sense but there are less problems: well i have less anyway) Life's not meant to be fully understood. Sorry for the extreme blurness of what I'm saying for those who don't understand.
I'm exhausted from handling other ppl's problems. Frankly, I'm glad ppl come to me for advice but i really cant help when the person insists on putting themselves thru living hell over and over again!! I need someone to talk to who's not related to lun,sher and sam but where the heck am I gonna find someone like that? The sopranos are alr too closely related to my life and the fact that shena and my clique alr have links; I'm not a risk-taker. Not close to any altos tenors or basses, and it's not like anyone is gonna step up and help me deal with it. Hurts alot but what can I say? Some ppl are stubborn.

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